A couple nights ago I had a dream, in which I found myself on my hands and knees when I noticed someone standing in front of me. As my eyes made their way up, they fell upon my grandfather's face.I remember feeling complete surprise, excitement and joy at seeing my grandfather and having him in my presence again. Overwhelmed with emotion, I fell into his arms as he hugged me and smiled, beaming with love.
I could feel his strength, his pride and his great love for me as he held me. I looked at him with wet eyes and asked him, "Grandpa, what is it all about? What is the point?" to which he replied, "To enjoy life and to be happy." I then nervously asked him, "Grandpa, am I okay being gay?" and with no hesitation in his kind voice and a hint of surprise that I even had to ask, he responded, "Of course you are!" and hugged me tighter.
In an instant, he was gone, just as he had come and I was left with the peace I am sure he has felt for the last four months or so. At that moment, just as all the others when he was alive, I felt his amazing, undoubtable love that no other person can more adequately make me feel. It was real and his love is one that I want to possess in my own heart and allow others to show me.
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